That’s how I would describe my life. Rain Check

I sometimes feel I received less than I deserved but more than I had asked for. It’s a struggle.
I don’t know how others view themselves, but I like me. I love ME, to be honest, but it just takes one person to change the way you view yourself. To make you feel yourself worth is less than nothing. Why do we allow others to determine our worth? Is it truly lack boundaries? It is low self-esteem or co-dependency. I think it’s none of the above.

Deep down inside, I had this vision of what I expected my life to be like and it really did come out to a certain extent, but what I do remember when I was growing up, is the fact I never imagined a family or marriage. Honestly, I would not even play ‘House’ and have a fake wedding. It scared me. How? Why? I was never around a failed marriage. I never knew my parents together so how would I have known that it wasn’t right for us to not all be together? Yet, here I am, wanting someone to be in my life, I want someone to be there for me and those who have that, more than likely want to be alone.

Humans are a fickle breed.

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